DAY 3 ED FREE!!!
I wanted it all…
- The boyfriend
- The skinny body
- Smaller boobs
- Longer, blonder hair
- The invite to the party
- The lavish, materialistic lifestyle
And I got it.. I got it all
Consumed in this ‘have it all’ lifestyle I can remember truly believing that I was happy.
Only thing was…
I was fake.
I was consumed in a materialistic, weight dependent world built on my own lies.
I had achieved all on my “want-list”.
But I had lost everything on Jaimie’s list
- My friends
- Connection with family
- My ability to eat and enjoy it
- My morals
- My compassion
- My values
- My will
- My passion
- My happiness
I was not Jaimie for almost 7 years of my life. At 23 years old, I had lost 7 years to my own delusions. I believed that I needed those “wants” to be happy – but truth is, it only delivered the opposite.
And so my journey is a journey BACK to me. To the happy, healthy, honest, beautiful ME. And to love me, my body, and let the person I will become and my value system and inner self reflect my beauty.
The past 3 days of being completely ED free and the past few months of a shifted mindset and step by step journey to recovery have been the most honest, happiest times in the past 7 years. Anorexia and Bulimia did not bring me any truth or happiness. But this journey of self-love (despite of its ups and downs) toward full recovery has! I can only imagine the beautiful life that the future holds! And that is what keeps me fighting.